Whenever I'm asked in interviews why I got into porn I usually give a quick answer to one of the reasons I did- despite me having several reasons I got into it. The reasons I entered the industry is very complicated. I didn't wake up thinking, "I really want to be a porn star". No, of course not. It was a gradual thought process that took several months. And for the first time I'm going to open up about it. The full story of why I decided to do porn.
I grew up with my fathers parents who were very religious- they were Jehovah Witnesses. So I taught very early on to be ashamed of my sexuality and to not be promiscuous and most definitely not have sex before marriage. I deeply believed that for years. I thought I had some righteous meaning behind holding my v-card out even though I was sexually charged at an early age. So throughout my youth; I was embarrassed of who I was. I knew it was wrong to give as much blowjobs as I did and I knew it was wrong to watch porn but I did that anyways.
My dad had always encouraged me to be my authentic true self from a very early age but I was so blinded by my grandparents religious persecution that I ignored him. In fact, a small part of me hated him because of what he did for a living. He owned a gay porn company. I hated that he did it. He knew how much I hated it. I expressed my hatred vey often. And looking back I can see he reason why I hated it and that's because of the social stigma attached to porn- parents didn't want me their children going over to my dads house for play dates because they thought he was a pedophile- which he isn't. I blamed my dad for my social leprosy.
When I was 13; I came across some of my dads Porno DVDs that he produced and directed. I watched it and soon I was addicted to watching porn. I surfed he Internet for it everyday and I had my favorite genre and favorite pornstars. I channeled the sexual energy I got from watching porn into my blowjobs. And soon I was giving really good head. And then I started sexting pictures of myself. I wanted someone to want my body the way I could see the male talent want the girl talents body in porn. Eventually I got over my dad owning a porn company- I didn't stop viewing it the way society did though. I still thought it was evil and ruined lives so I vowed I would never do porn. Then I turned 18.
I joined a fetish website called, FetLife, and I became really comfortable with advertising the sexuality I had contained for so long. I was approached by a company called, Pink-Cuffs, to do a fetish shoot and then another company asked me to do a rope bondage shoot. It was easy money and I only had to get slightly naked. I didn't even have to have sex with anyone or myself. After both of those shoots I was directed towards a cam studio located in Arizona from the owner of Pink-Cuffs. I was curious about cammodeling so I agreed to meet with the female owner of the studio. The studio is called "PulpVixens". I met with the owner and a week later I was camming. I love camming- it was fun! I could touch myself for other people's pleasure and make good money! I did camming for a little bit. I went up to visit my mom in Washington and that's when I stopped. I just wasn't interested in continuing it anymore. I was starting to think about doing porn.
I was still unsure about it so I called my dad. We discussed it for HOURS. He didn't think it was the best decision for me at first but he said he had no place to judge me and that I was an adult. He told me I should know all the possible consequences first before I decided to do anything. He told me to watch "Hot Girls Wanted" and "After Porn Ends" so I did. Several times actually. And I watched other documentaries on the industry. I spent over a month researching. And during that month I was contacted by Kendra Lust. We talked on the phone and she was super cool and sweet- I had been communicating with other agents but I really loved the vision Kendra had. (I eventually signed with her)
After all he research, reaching out to retired performers, talking with each person in my family individually, and asking my closest friends what they think about me doing porn I felt ready to make up my mind. And my mind said "yes" to becoming a porn star.
I went over my reasons to enter I porn with my dad and below are the reasons I had written down back in January. I hope what I said gave you an idea of my thought process and a bit of how I got into it but I will make a more in depth blog post about how I got in the industry! (:
Xoxo,
Callie L Klein
My Reasons:
1. I want to explore my sexuality
2. I want to become someone different
3. I want to become more brave
4. I want to be free
5. I get to travel
6. I get to have sex with hot people
7. I have sex with myself, I may just have sex with others on camera
8. I have no shame
I respect your decsion about porn. I too am a Jehovah Witness, so I know you can relate to my situation. I try to follow what I am supposed to do, but porn is my weakness (if you want to call it that). Anyway I don't think I'm hurting anyone, just satisfying a need I have. I especially love watching you. You are so genuine in how to perform. I hope you continue to perform as long as you are enjoying it. I certainly will continue to be a huge fan of your work. I would like to meet you someday, but who knows if that would ever happen. Anyway keep up the good attitude and work as long as you can enjoy.
ReplyDeleteCallie a great post and I think the best porn stars are the people who do this to explore their sexuality,have fun and as you say throw of the shackles of Stigma that is attached to our sexuality by the Church. Kudos to you for taking this journey and sharing it with us all.
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