If you met me a year ago; you would've been shocked about the person I've become. Everything I stood for, everything I believed in, and all the rules I obeyed; have changed. I've became the person I always wanted to be and more. I am not the person I grew up being- I'm completely different. My old self is somewhere in the past and I do not intend on returning to.
Probably the most drastic change I've gone through is the awakening of my sexuality... Which I hear everyday- it's just so different. The reasoning is because I was so ashamed of myself as a person and myself as a sexual being that I kept it inside and only revealed it to a select few. Now; I'm open and unashamed and completely unapologetic with my sexual appetite.
And it's all because of the first time I fucked in a car with an army guy who was only in town for a few days. I was still a good girl but when he showed interest; I was ready to become a deviant. The sex that night was so good that it's still in the top 10 of the best sex I've ever had. It sparked a sexual craving I didn't know existed. After that; all I wanted was dick. I wanted it in my mouth and inside of me. I wanted it everyday and I wanted it hard. I was a bit aggressive in my endeavors for the cock. I would make it a goal to seduce a new guy every week. Sometimes they could get the pussy when other times they only got the mouth. I made sure both (mouth/pussy) were pleasurable so they would come begging back- I wanted the power. Pussy power. And I dangled that shit over guys heads very well.
But I had no interest in love- love was dead. It disappeared after my failed engagement. I had decided that I was destined for a life without love and the moment I decided that; my sexual appetite went from a small fire into an inferno. I was having sex with my bosses, coworkers, professors, best friends, random dudes at parties, and my favorite kind of guy to fuck- military men.
I was sleeping with older men even though I was only 17. I didn't care. I was on a sexual conquest. And on my 18th birthday; I spent the whole night fucking a guy I met a few days earlier at my job. He was tall, attractive, and had a sexy cute smile. He happened to work in the same mall as I did- which is how we met. I knew he wasn't my usual type- he was a pretty boy. He wasn't rugged and he wasn't in the military but I was curious as to what he could offer me. And luckily for me; the seduction was very easy. Unfortunately for me; he can very quickly so I had to fake my orgasm. it was very depressing.
I became a bad girl when a guy from high school contacted me out of nowhere. He just wanted to hang out. And I didn't see the problem with that but I guess his intentions were always clear- I didn't know that. He seduced me and I had never really been seduced before so I didn't know how to react but to go along with it. The relationship was strictly friends with benefits but lasted over 3 months and ended in disaster. This guy burned my old self to a crisp. I could've been upset but it gave me such a rush. I wanted to be bad.
I then started to cammodel which gave me HUGE sexual confidence.
The next guy I was with was a guy who lived on his own with his two cats. I never cared for him really- and I still don't. I don't find him an appealing human being but he offered me freedom. And I moved in for about a week before I ended up moving out of my house completely and into my new place (where I live now). Every night we fucked and every morning we fucked. I was in sexual heaven but I got stupid and became careless. I stopped caring about the people my sexual addiction was affecting. He was the last guy I was with before I got into porn.
I don't regret every guy I've been with. There are a few of them and that's only because it didn't directly lead to my evolution. I could put them on blast if I wanted to but that wouldn't be kind of me... But I will say about the guys I have regretted it with... They all had small dicks. And to those guys; I am speaking directly to you now... I hope you know you can never satisfy a woman with your dick ;)
Well. Here's to the end of "A Year in Review Part 1: Sexuality" 🍻
Xoxo,
Callie L Klein
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